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CHAPTER 3
THOUGHTS OF YOU
‘thoughts’
****actions/scene changes****
<<<dreams/visions>>>
~*~*~
<<<BOOM
BOOM
BOOM.
Bombs
were exploding all around the Japanese woman as she ran through the streets
pulling two little children.
“RUN!! RUN!!! RUN!!! DON’T STOP!!!! KEEP RUNNING!!!!” the
woman yelled to the children as a bomb exploded near them.
The woman looked at the sky as she heard another bomb
coming. She grabbed her children, and
fell to the ground using her body as a shield.
****KAAAAAABOOOOOOM****
“Mommy?” the little girl said.
“Mommy?” the little boy said.
The children crawled out from underneath their mother. What they saw was horrible. The woman was covered in her own blood but
the children were unharmed. Upon seeing
this, the woman sadly smiled. She knew
she dying but she was willing to sacrifice her life for her children. With tears in her eyes she spoke to her
children…
“Mommy’s going to have to leave you now.”
“Oh no. Not again, not again, not again” the little girl
said over and over again rocking back and forth on her knees as the tears
brimmed her Prussian blue eyes and fell down her chubby checks.
The woman playfully pulled on a chocolate ponytail, “Don’t
cry. You’ll have to be a big girl now
and take care of your brother.”
She then looked at the little boy with tears streaming down
his face. She raised her shaking hand
to brush his wild bangs out of his face, “And young man, you have to take care
of your sister. Can you both do that
for me?”
“Yes mommy.” They replied in unison.
“Very good then”
The children gave their mother one last kiss and hug
goodbye.
“I love you, mommy” the children said in unison.
“And I love you too” The woman replied, “Now go before the
soldiers come.”
“Mommy? When you
get to heaven can you tell my other mommy I love her?” The little girl asked as she stood up with
her brother.
“Yes dear I will.
And remember we will always be with you no matter where you go.” The woman’s eyes closed never to open again.
The little boy wiped the tears from his eyes and did the
same for his sister. He looked at his
mother peacefully sleeping one last time, grabbed his sisters’ hand and began
running.
“Where we going?” the little girl asked running as fast as
her legs can carry her.
“Faraway”
“Faraway where?”
The little boy didn’t answer just kept on running.
“Aren’t you going to answer me?!”
No reply.
“Heero”
No reply
“HEERO”
No reply
“HEERO!!”>>>>
“Heero”
Heero’s head shot up from the desk causing Quatre to jump five feet
back.
“Heero, you were having a nightmare.
I’ve been trying to wake you for the past five minutes. You want to talk about it?” his voice full
of concern.
“No.” Heero replied running his
hand through his damp hair.
“Well, if you ever need to talk I’m willing to listen” Quatre kindly
told him
Heero nodded.
“I think you should go to your quarters and get some rest. I’ll look after her for you.” Quatre placed his tea and book on the desk
waiting for Heero to vacate the seat.
“What about Kellee?” he asked not moving.
“The others are awake and fine.
Now go get some sleep Heero.
I’ll come and get you as soon as she wakes up.” He said with a smile.
Heero reluctantly got up and stretched his aching muscles. He looked over at his sister then turned and
left the room. Quatre closed the door
behind him.
‘Who would have thought Heero was an over protective brother.’ he thought as he
sat in the seat Heero vacated and reach for his tea.
‘But then again, so am I’
He looked over at the sleeping woman.
She was beautiful, intelligent, confident and just as mysterious as
Heero.
‘Well
if she’s anything like Heero, I feel sorry for the man that falls in love with
her’
He flipped to the first page of his book and began reading.
~*~*~
Kellee walked out of her bedroom and over to the kitchenette. She reached into the cupboard, grabbed a cup
and poured herself some tea. She walked
over to the love seat, sat down and swung a leg over the armrest.
“You’ll never win that bet if you don’t stop pissin’ Trowa off.” She
scolded herself as she sipped her tea.
‘Quatre never mentioned Trowa was an ass.’
She closed her eyes as the warm, soothing liquid slide down her throat.
“OK Kell. How are you going to
get Trowa to take you out?”
She began bouncing her leg that was hanging off the armrest up and down
while sipping her tea and contemplating her next move. After a few minutes a maniac smile crossed
her face.
“Got it!” she jumped up off the love seat and ran into her bedroom.
~*~*~
He
stood in her doorway. The moonlight
streamed through the window barely illuminating his body. She let her gaze soak in every inch of
him. He was shirtless baring his broad,
well toned and muscled chest for her approval.
He walked up to the foot of her bed and looked at her with a predatory
gaze as he began to crawl up the bed.
“I’ve come for you”, he said in a low husky voice as his
callused hands gently slid up her legs as he made his way toward her.
She met him half way sliding her hand around his neck and
though his long thick hair. Their lips
met in a hot sensual kiss. His tongue
lapped at the edges of her lips and she parted them to allow him access. He was so hot. She was so sweet. His
hands roamed up under her shirt and lovingly caressed every inch of her. He broke the kiss and gazed into her passion
filled blue eyes.
“I see that you’ve been expecting me.” referring to her
lack of undergarments.
“For far too long”, and she answered as she reclaimed his
lips in another searing kiss.
Her hands roamed over his back, needing to feel the
strength in his muscles as a moan escaped her throat. He smiled to himself and let one hand knead a soft breast while
the other went in search of her hidden treasure. When he found it, he rubbed his index finger over it to unlock
its precious gems. She arched her back
and gripped his shoulders as an unfamiliar yet tantalizing sensation ran
through her body.
“Ahhhhhh Duuuoooo…”
Hilde sat straight up her bed.
Her hair plastered to her head and body drenched in sweat. Then she realized she was a bit…soggy.
“DAMN!! DAMN!! DAMN!! DAMN!! DAMN!!” she said over and over again as she
punched her pillow repeatedly.
***POOF!***
Feathers went flying all over her room.
“FUCK!” She said as she tossed
the remnants of the pillow to the floor.
She got off her bed, stalked into the bathroom and turn on the cold
water. She hurriedly took off her
soiled clothing, tossed them in the hamper and stepped into the cold
water. She let the water run down her
body cooling her temper and her hormones.
‘Its not your mind. It’s your
heart. Your in love with him.’ That little voice told her.
“Well
he doesn’t love me, so move on stupid,” she said out loud to the showerhead.
She’d been trying to get over him for the past six months. But every time she tired to move one step
forward those violet eyes and that damn sexy braid would always pull her two
steps back. That’s one thing she and
Relena had in common; they both were in love with men who were too stupid to
notice. She closed her eyes and his
image immediately came into view.
“I’ve got to let you go for my own sanity.” She whispered to the face of
the man who held her heart as she let her tears be washed down the drain.
~*~*~
…“Ahhhhhh Duuuoooo…”
“WHOA!”
Duo eyes popped open and he sat up.
His hair was wild, sticking out all over the place and he was drenched
in sweat. He then noticed
something…different. He looked down and
saw his…friend… saluting him, so he saluted back and lay back down on his bed
flinging his arm over his eyes.
‘That was entirely too real’ as he thought back on the dream he had about
Hilde.
After lying on his bed a few minutes reliving his vivid dream, Duo got
up and starting stripping his clothes off on the way to the bathroom. He stepped in the shower; turned on the cold
water and let it hit him in the face.
“What the hell is wrong with me?” Duo said to the shower walls as he
continued to let the water hit him in his face.
‘Duo. When you figure out why
you were looking for me then maybe you’ll know why I left.’ Hilde’s voice
said once again.
He’d had strange feelings for
her even before she left but after she left they just intensified to the point
were it was hard to function without thinking about her. He saw her face everywhere he went and in
everything he did. Looking for her had
become an obsession. Wufei would
chastise him for his weakness but he didn’t care. He had to find her.
He
leaned toward the shower wall placing both hands on it letting the water run
through his long hair and down his back.
“I don’t know”
~*~*~
The
message played over and over again in her mind. Catherine was standing in her bathrobe rumbling through her
closet.
Catherine chuckled. She had to admit Kellee could come up with some
strange codes phrases but it got the job done.
“Nope” as she tossed an outfit out of the closet and on to her bed.
“Nadda” an another
“Ick” one more
“Don’t think so” an other
“Ah Ha” she finally found one.
It was a dark green sleeveless and collarless fitted vest with a short
skirt that came to mid thigh. The color
made her auburn hair stand out. She
hung the outfit on the clothing rack beside her vanity and sat down in front of
the mirror. She gathered her long hair
in her hands and tried to decide how she should wear it.
Butterflies
began to flutter in her stomach as she pictured his beautiful violet eyes and
silky brown hair. She knew she was in
love with him and she was going to tell him so. After they were captured, she vowed if she got out of there alive
she was going to tell him how she felt and make the best of any time they were
able to spend together. Since they were
both spies, they knew that there might be a mission they didn’t survive but
that was a risk they all were willing to take in the name of peace.
“I can never get my hair right.” she said as she let her thick mane fall
back to her shoulders.
“I know, I’ll get Kell to do it for me.”
Catherine reached over and dialed the vidphone.
“Kellee Deanna Winner”, the voice answered the phone.
“Kell. Help!” she looked at Kellee with pleading eyes holding her hair
up in her hands.
Kellee laughed at her, ”Be down in a sec. Are you gonna tell him?”
“Yeah”
“You go girl.” And the screen went blank.
~*~*~
Trowa was walking down the hallway thinking about the fact that his
sister was putting her life in danger and has been doing it behind his
back. He was also trying to get a
certain annoying, chatty, obnoxious, sexy, blond haired, mint green-eyed vixen
off his mind. He hated to admit it but
he found her beautiful and her body…. remembering her biker shorts and sports
bra attire.
‘Stop it Barton’ he scolded himself ‘She’s your best friends’
sister’
***WHAM***
Trowa collided with another person but caught them before they fell.
“Hello.
I’m talking to you.”
“…”
“You could at least apologize for running me down, baka.”
“Baka!”
“Oh so you do know how to speak”
“…”
“Damn it. Let me go beast!”
“Beast!”
Trowa had forgot he was holding Kellee.
He was distracted by how good it felt to hold her and those eyes…but
after her insult he dropped her in the floor.
Just then the door swung open and Catherine saw Trowa glaring at Kellee
who was on the floor glaring back at Trowa.
Catherine sighed, ‘Here we go again.’
Catherine
held out her hand to Kellee helping her up off the floor.
“Now what happened?”
“That ASS ran me over then dropped me in the floor” she said pissed as
she readjusted the thigh length mint green skirt of her suit that matched her
eyes. She then glared at Trowa and
walked pass Catherine into her quarters.
“ASS?!. Well if you would have
been watching where the hell you were going instead of talking to the walls,
you wouldn’t have run into ME!” Trowa said as he walked past Catherine
following Kellee.
“You know what Trowa? That’s
probably the most you’ve spoken all year.
Maybe you should leave, I wouldn’t want you to use up next years word
quota.” she said with a sarcastic smile.
He smiled back sarcastically, “Your right. I have some shopping to do anyway.” and he headed for the door.
‘Oh my god, Trowa smiled’ Catherine thought.
“Whatcha going shopping for Trowa?”
Catherine asked since Trowa wasn’t much on shopping.
“A muzzle to shut that loud mouth up” he replied and slammed the door.
Catherine turned to Kellee, “Your never gonna get him to take you out at
this rate.”
“Just wait. Wait and see.”
Catherine suddenly felt sorry for Trowa.
~*~*~
“Why don’t you just get in you Gundam and go?!”
“Well? Why are you still here?”
“What? Nothing to say?”
Relena stared at the worn teddy bear Heero gave her for her 16th
birthday. She felt talking to the teddy
bear was just as good as talking to Heero because he probably wouldn’t answer
her questions either. She walked over
to the teddy bear and smacked him clear across the room pretending it was
Heero.
Jai told her that she has to channel her frustration in other ways
instead of keeping it inside because it will only destroy her like it did
before.
There are no words to explain how she felt when they returned from their
mission. Jai, Sally, Kell, Cath and
Hilde were her rock, salvation, best friends…sisters. They were there to help pick up the pieces of her shattered soul
after her suicide attempt. She was
grateful that they told no one about what happened. At least she could return
to her position with no tarnish to her image.
Sally told the press that “the Vice Foreign Minister was extremely
stressed and on vacation for an unspecified period of time”. But in reality, Relena was in a coma that
lasted a month. When she woke up she
learned that Jai had found her but Jai refused to talk about it. Relena believed Jai was suffering from
nightmares because of the suicide and the fact that she had to keep it from
Heero. Heero and Jai did not keep
secrets from each other so she knew this one was eating away at Jai even if Jai
denied it every time Relena asked her about it. But at the moment she wasn’t ready to tell the reason behind her
sudden departure.
“Hilde’s right. Loving a baka is a bitch”, she said as she kicked the
teddy bear and it landed in its exact spot back on the bed.
~*~*~
Heero returned to his quarters, he took a quick shower and crashed on
his bed with the towel still wrapped around his waist. Part of him was looking forward to talking
with Jai but another part of him was not.
”How could you fail a mission so simple?!” she yelled at
him through his laptop.
“I can’t find Relena. Do you know where she is?”
Heero returned from the battlefield where they fought the
Gundamium mobile dolls and went straight to Relena’s mansion because he sensed
something was wrong. When he arrived
the balcony was wet and smelled like it had been scrubbed with bleach. He looked around Relena’s room but nothing
was out of order. He called Jai and
that’s when the yelling began.
“How in the hell could you fail Heero!”
“Damn it Jai! Do you know where Relena is?”
“She’s with me and that’s where she’ll be until I feel like
letting her come back.”
“Where are you?
Where’s Relena?” Heero was
sounding desperate. Now he knew
something was wrong.
“That’s for me to know and for you not to.” She said with her Prussian blue eyes
blazing. “This game you’ve been playing
with Relena is officially over. You had
your chance to tell her how you felt but your dumb ass blew it!”
Heero stared at the image of his pissed off sister ranting
and raving knowing full well everything she said was true. He had been playing games, one that lasted
far too long. Yes, he was in love with
Relena. He loved everything about
her. Her ideals, her spirit, her voice,
her smile, basically her everything.
He’d once told Trowa to live a good life you have to act on your
emotions but he just didn’t know how to act on these kinds of emotions. Jai told him just to say “I love you” and
the rest would work itself out. But it
was so hard for him to say it. He knew
Relena loved him and always had. He
knew when he heard her crying at night clutching on to the teddy bear he gave
her for her 16th birthday that all he had to do was say those three
words and her tears, her pain, her sorrow would cease but the soldier in him
just would budge.
“Heero are you listening to me?!”
Heero snapped his attention back to his pissed off sister.
“Listen and listen well Heero. It’s about time your merge Heero the man and Heero the perfect
soldier into one. You’ve had more than
enough time to do so and your time is up.
Either get it together or be gone by the time she gets back. And if you leave this time Heero, don’t
bother to come back EVER!”
Heero
turned over onto his stomach and fell into an uneasy sleep.
~*~*~
Jai awoke with a start and sat straight up. She felt the left side of her bed dip.
“Good. Your awake.”
Jai turned her head and stared into those beautiful blue green
eyes…Quatre.
“Are you OK?”
Jai snapped back to reality, “Uh yeah. What time is it?”
“Noon”
“Well I didn’t sleep very long.” she said stretching her aching muscles.
Quatre looked at her and started laughing, ”Well you didn’t sleep very
long if you consider three days not very long.”
“THREE DAYS! I’ve been asleep for three days! Why didn’t somebody wake
me up?!” she shouted as she swung her legs over the right side of the bed and
stood up.
That’s when she felt the world start spinning faster on its axis and the
room turned up side down.
“Jai. You’re moving too fast.”
Quatre said as he caught her before the floor did.
Jai felt two strong arms grab her by her waist and set her back on the
bed. She felt like her head was going
to spin off of her shoulders so she held on to it to make sure it wouldn’t. The arms were still wrapped around her
waist. And she had to admit it felt
good…too good.
Her vision started clearing up.
“Wait here and don’t move. I
promised Heero I’d come get him as soon as you woke up.”
“I’ll do it”
Quatre and Jai looked up to see Relena leaning against the doorframe
arms crossed with a Chester Cheetah grin on her face.
“Don’t you two move. You look so cute together.” She said as she turned
and left the room.
Quatre
sensed Jai’s thoughts and laughed but he still kept his arms around her.
‘It
just feels so …right’
~*~*~
Relena
knocked on the door as she opened it not wanting to get shot by Heero.
“Heero”
No
answer
“Heero.
It’s me, Relena. Jai’s awake.”
No
answer
‘This
is weird’
Relena
walked through Heero’s quarters noticing how neat and ordered every thing was.
‘This
is where they’re complete opposites, Jai is the messiest person I know…well
besides me’
Relena
slowly pushed Heero’s bedroom door open and what she saw made her stop
breathing. There he was laying face down on his bed with a towel wrapped round
his waist. Relena release the breath she was holding.
‘He’s
not only the PERFECT SOLDIER, he’s the PERFECT MAN with the PERFECT BODY,’ she tilted her head slightly to
the left, ‘and the PERFECT ASS.’
Relena
walked up to the bed to get a close up view of Godliness. Relena let her gazed start at his ankles and
worked its way up his well-muscled legs and thighs.
‘I
wonder what they taste like.’
She
licked her lips as she let her gaze linger on his tan thighs.
Then
her eyes rested on what was covered by the towel.
‘I
wonder if I can sneak a peak’
She
leaned over on the bed careful not to put any of her weight on it. She picked up the edge of the towel using
her thumb and index finger and began to lift the towel….
“AHH!!”
The
next thing Relena knew Heero had grabbed her wrists and had her pinned down
underneath him with her arms above her head.
“What
the hell were you doing?” Heero asked as his eyes bore into hers.
“I…I…I…Jai’s up.” Relena was finally able to get out.
Heero continued to stare directly into her eyes. Relena was beginning to get warm not only
because Heero was on top on her in a towel staring at her and her mid thigh
skirt was now at her hips but Heero was massaging the inset of her wrists with
his thumbs. It was
unbearably…sensual. As Relena stared
into Heero’s eyes she saw something she’d had never seen before. Longing…Lust…Love. Then she realized his face was an inch away from hers. Their eyes doing all of the talking and
their lips moving closer together.
“Hey.
If you guys want privacy you might want to lock the door.” Duo said laughing at
the scene he stumbled upon.
‘Fuck’ Heero and Relena thought at the same time.
Heero got off of Relena and stood in front of her so she could readjust
her skirt.
“What do you want, Duo?” annoyed that he was so close to his prize to
have it ruined by Duo. It took him 7
years to get that kind of an opportunity.
“Jai’s going to give us a briefing of their mission, in an hour. Med
conference room.”
Heero nodded.
Duo took this as his cue to leave and did so with a silly grin plastered
on his face.
Relena
got up off of the bed and headed out of the door.
“Did you enjoy the view?”
Relena paused in the doorway, “Heero. There’s not much about you I don’t
enjoy” and resumed walking out of his quarters.
‘I still may have a chance after all’
Heero walked over to his closet to find something to wear.
~*~*~
Sally
was watching Wufei practice his martial arts from the doorway that leads to the
women’s locker room. His movements were
sleek…graceful…perfect.
Sally didn’t know when she began to find Wufei attractive but now she
couldn’t stop the scandalous thoughts that would run through her mind. She thought the feeling would pass but
instead it had intensified and it was driving her nuts. Not to mention Lady Une’s secretary, Samone
Ling, has the hots for him. Sally
didn’t want to admit it but she was jealous.
‘Why
should I be jealous of her? I should
feel sorry for her. Wufei has the
personality of a jackass…but the body of Adonis.’
“Weighing the pros and cons of Wufei again?”
Sally snapped her head to see Hilde standing right next to her.
“You don’t have to answer. I
know how you feel. Like I always say,
loving a baka is a bitch.”
Sally grinned at Hilde. Hilde
was always there to cheer somebody up.
“Anyway we have a briefing in an hour, your place.”
Sally nodded and Hilde left.
“Wufei”
Wufei turned around.
“We have a briefing in an hour”
Wufei nodded and proceeded to the men’s locker room.
Sally shook her head.
“Damn”
She turned and went to her locker.
~*~*~
Wufei
toweled dried his wet hair and began dressing.
‘Women are weak. SHE is WEAK’
He knew that wasn’t true. SHE
wasn’t weak. Now that annoying Samone
Ling, she weak but Sally is one of the strongest women he knew. Jai, Kellee, Hilde, and Catherine they were
strong too. And since Relena has
returned from her trip she is not so weak either. But he would never tell them that. Too bad it took the blade of her knife to realize that. He shuddered when he thought about how close
he came to being the very last of the dragon clan.
For some reason Sally fascinated him.
She was the only one who didn’t whine about his opinions. She just goes out of her way to prove him
wrong. And she always does but he’ll never tell her that. Somehow she knows. Just as she seems to know exactly what he needs.
‘I
can’t be in love with her. Can I? NO.
Love is weak. Those I love die.’
The face of his first wife appeared before him and he frowned.
“I can not, will not fall in love with Sally”
Wufei slammed his locker shut and left the locker
room.