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Thank you everybody! I've got to hurry, Christmas is almost here.

WARNING! This chapter (towards the end) is VERY Angst. And has some bad language. This will put you in a bad mood.

Quatre was staring at the huge Christmas tree admiring its beauty.

That's when he heard the "Hi ya Ojousan, wuz up?" from Duo.

Great, Duo was here. All of the pilots were here. Well… all expect one.

Quatre though that he wasn't going to come. He hadn't come to the one before that.

Turning towards the kitchen, he just caught sight of a long braid flopping up and down as Duo bounced to raid Relena's fridge.

He walked to the doorway of Relena's decorated kitchen and watched Duo tired to shove everything possible in his mouth.

It was really a funny sight, him with half the turkey in his mouth. Curious how anyone can have such a big stomach.

"Hi Duo," said Quatre.

"Hei Qauter," said Duo with his mouth full. "Ded yao knen shat Hro is hera?"

"What?" it was really hard to understand him. Quatre was surprised he didn't chock.

Duo took a moment to shallow the food; man that guy can eat fast.

"Heero's here."

"He is?!"

"Yep."

He felt joy, he felt happiness, but most of all he felt shock.

Heero here?

What will Relena do?

His thoughts immediately went to one of his best friends.

God, he even let her cry on his shoulder once.

She must be screaming now.

Of course, in the inside. She would always stay the cool and calm person on the outside, but she was always crying on the inside.

Take a look at her eyes. They lost their happiness. They were so dark and lonely, so… fragile.

She would take her orders and do her work. She would do whatever is necessary for the even, even give her own soul.

It was so hard… for him to look at her.

There was only one thing that would make her truly happy. And that thing is outta reach.

He tired, of course he did. He looked far and wide.

No success.

The Perfect Solider had hidden well.

And he was here, all of a sudden.

This time he would make her happy.

Hopefully.

Her mind told her to stay calm. To call a servant and get him a room.

Her heart told her to scream.

He was here. Alive and well.

It was tearing her up with just the sight of him.

Why was he here?

He was here just to break her fragile hear again. Maybe this time it would break for real.

Then she won't have to suffer no more.

He would probably leave in the middle of the party, leaving her crying, like always.

Maybe it's best if he left now, then she can forget he was never here.

But you can't kick him out. He's Heero.

So she let him in, got a servant and made her show him to his new room.

The entire time she screamed.

Screamed and screamed.

A comforting hand put itself on her shoulder.

Quickly, she turned around. Afraid of whomever it belonged to.

It was Quatre's.

Okay, she wasn't afraid of Quatre. Hadn't he been a friend to her these past two years?

She allowed herself to relax. To stare at the place where Heero had just stood.

She let her eyes go unfocused.

She shut that hideous screaming.

Took Quatre's hand off her shoulders, and ran to her room.

The door slamming was never a good sign.

It meant someone was mad, scared, or hurt.

Or in this case, it meant Heero's here and Relena's upset.

Of course, Wufei didn't know this. And either than Sally. Or Hilde, or Dorothy. You get the point.

"Women. Can't walk though a door without slamming it," mummered Wufei under his breathe.

"What did you say?" asked Sally.

"Nothing."

"Wonder what's wrong," asked Hilde.

"Dunno," said Catherine.

"Whatever is it, it must be pretty bad. Relena never slams her door like that," said Noin. "I sure am glad Milliardo's at that emergency conference."

Duo was out of the kitchen (finally!) and sitting on a big sofa with everybody else.

He tired to look innocent, but nothing could escape the sharp eye of Hilde.

"Okay Duo, spill," she commanded. This got the attention of everyone.

Duo gave a nervous laugh, "Do I have to?"

"Yep. Or I could go get the scissors."

"Okay, okay," he gave another nervous laugh, and in a tiny squeaking voice, he said, "Heero's here."

Silence.

"WHAT?!"

"What the hell is he doing here?!"

"Why didn't you tell us earlier!"

"I'm getting the scissors."

"No!"

"No wonder she's upset.

"Yuy!"

"Oh my god!"

All the commotion couldn't be heard in Relena. Or was it Relean couldn't hear it?

Her mind was more lost then usual. Completely unaware that anyone was freaking out downstairs.

Her mind was on him. That he just suddenly showed up one day.

This was too much.

She had the sudden feeling that she was going to faint.

It wasn't that she wasn't happy to see him, she was just so surprised, and … hurt.

He had been living with Duo all this time [A/N: Don't get any freaky ideas. This is a non-yaoi fic. O.o] and never came to see her.

Maybe everybody was right. Maybe he never did care about her and never will.

Maybe she should just give up.

Just… give up.

She leaned against the heavy oak doors after slamming it. The feel of cool wood under her hand was good.

She had made herself a promise.

She would not cry.

She would not shed a tear.

The tearjerker Relena was gone.

She calmed down. Counted to ten and calmed down.

She will not go back into her old self. She was not that little foulish fifteen year old anymore. She would handle this like a big girl.

Deciding not to keep her guests waiting, she headed downstairs not caring whether he was there or not.

The commotion downstairs never stopped.

Questions here and there were being thrown everywhere.

Everybody seemed angry. Angry at someone. Either him or her, or someone else.

"Suddaup Women."

"You shut up!"

"She needs to freaking stop slamming doors!"

"You need to get yourself a life! And you suddaup!"

"I want to punch him to pulp!"

"Will everyone calm down?!"

"YOU, SHUT UP Mr. Billionaire!"

"STOP IT!"

Somebody clearing their throat could be heard thought all this commotion, but nobody cared.

"If HEERO YUY hadn't come here-"

~Smack~

"Ow! You STUPID F---ING idiot!"

"Heero Yuy is the stupid f---ing idiot!"

"Shut up!" a new voice shouted this. It cracked on the word "up".

Everybody turned and looked towards the voice.

It was Relena's.

Uh-oh. You never call Heero Yuy that when she's around.

She lost control.

It was the F word that did it, it was the commotion, the stress, and the exhaustion. Plus the fact that Heero Yuy just showed up.

She lost control.

Her face was a striking mess. It was red, her eyes narrowed and watery.

A minute of silence passed. It seemd the uniservse just freezed. Everyone's attention was on her.

"Would you miss me if I died?"

She said this in barely a whisper.

Yet every word seemed to carry her entire soul out into the universe to see.

Every word was true. So true. Not a hint or regret or lieing lay in it.

It was the truth.

God, she hated her life so badly.

Maybe… maybe the other life would be better.

Suddenly, her face turned into one of shock.

She had just realized what she said.

And bolted for the door.

Unknown to everyone else, Heero watched the entire screen.

He watched with pain in his heart.

The only girl he had ever cared had just said she wanted to die.

And she had ran out, to God knows where.

She had fallen.

The mask had slipped.

The true desperate little girl had been freed.

He walked downstairs from his room.

He looked at all of them, frozen in place.

"You pushed her too far," he said before leaving for the door.

He was going to find her.

~blinks~ I wrote that? I wrote that must angst? It must be the fic "Erasers" by Dark Abyss.

Dodges rotting veggie being thrown at her.

You must really hate me now.

Okay, so it was major angst. I'm sorry. Geez.

It had to be angst. I needed it to be angst, the reason is the ending.

This will end at Chapter Three.