A/N- I want to thank Lady Gundam, for helping me with this Chapter. THANKS!
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Worked By Time


By: Angel00


Chapter 13

Relena making her way to her room, panting as she went throw the black halls. Grabbing the knob with her shaky hand she entered her room with a weary sigh. Going to her bathroom, she removed the large bandage and look at her neck in the mirror. Again, seeing nothing unusual, she took a bath and changed into her night clothes. Slipping into the silk covers, she thought about everything that has happened so far...becoming emotionless...the car ride...and Heero. A tear slipped out of her eyes, now their usual blue color, the contacts lying in their respected place. Touching a finger to her cheek, she gathered the tear and held it to her vision, but wiping it furiously, on her white shirt.
Closing her eyes, she remembered her reaction to excepting her pacifists life, and looking back at what she left behind...

-------------------------Flashback-----------------------

Relena sat, rubbing her tense neck muscles with her left hand while her right hand was busy filling out annoying papers. Sighing she put the pen down and leaned in her worn velvet chair. Looking out the large window that decorated her office. Seeing the ocean wash up on the sand, and little boys run along the sand getting their feet wet while their dad ran to catch them. Feeling her eyes water she got up and walked to the window, putting her warm hand on the cold glass. Tears fell from her eyes as she watched the scene develop in front of her.
"Where are you, Heero?" She said quietly as more tears fell. "Why do you run away? Why do you put me threw this?" With her back hand, she wiped away the tears as she saw Noin come in the office.

"Relena. I think you should go home...your looking awfully sick...and your getting more skinner, anyway, Zechs and I need to leave for Mars early, see you when we get back ok, take care of yourself." Noin said. Nodding Relena gathered her purse and keys, and walked out of the office. Noin smiled at her.
"You know Relena...things will be better, maybe you could forget about the past...and...him, anyway, your brother sends his regards." Noin said. Relena nodded again and walked out of the room.
Relena got home, not seeing anyone there, she went threw the peach halls, everything untouched, everything seemed lonely, for Relena it was a habit. 'Well, brother, why didn't you say anything in person, are you ashamed of me?' She thought getting something to eat, finishing it she went up stairs and sat down on her computer. Seeing Cindy was online, she started chatting with her, Cindy had been her best friends, ever since they had met the first day of Cindy's secretary day working with Relena. Since that they had gone to fun places, and Cindy had made Relena come out a different woman, mind and well, part of her soul. One part was her craving for love, someone to hold, someone to love and to have loved back. Not finding that with Heero when he left, Relena had stopped eating enough to lose 12 pounds, and havening dark bags under her once bright eyes. But, like everything, she stood strong, but still craved for love, and the wanton of a family to laugh with. With Heero she had failed, at least she thought so, and with that became Relena, woman who was only for her work, and for being alone, now since Noin had left with her brother to Mars, and that's how it was with Relena.

BBGRelena: Hey Cindy.
CanDCin: Hey Relena. Aren't you home a little early?
BBGRelena: How was your day?
CanDCin: Don't try to avoid me...Noin sent you home...right?
BBGRelena: Yeah...she said I looked skinner, and I looked sick. Anyway why
would anyone care? They all left. I didn't get to say good-bye. I can't take
it anymore! I just can't, can't I just retire?
BBGRelena: Maybe I should forget about him.
CanDCin: Oh...Relena don't kill yourself with this...if you feel the need to
retire by all means, don't Relena, the people need you, and your thirst for
peace. But, I know that you can't do this forever.
BBGRelena: Why shouldn't I? Nothing will change, things come and go...like
him...he left me, what did I do wrong?
CanDCin: I know what your going threw, but maybe you can forget him, start
over, love someone alse.
CanDCin: Maybe you should go for....
BBGRelena: Who? What?
CanDCin: The clown guy, what's his name?
BBGRelena: TROWA?!?!
CanDCin: Yeah, that's his name...total hunk.
BBGRelena: Your kidding! I can't there's no way.
CanDCin: Relena I know I can't make you
BBGRelena: Do you think he ever loved me?
CanDCin: Relena, I honestly don't know, but who could resist you? But I bet
he did, and he doesn't know what hes missing.
BBGRelena: Thanks, I needed that, I've got to go, ok? Bye, Cin.
CanDCin: Bye, Relena.
(BBGRelena is not currently signed on.)

Relena slipping into bed closed her eyes and tossed in bed for a more comfortable position, but nothing seemed to be a comfortable position, especially when there was only one person in a King sized bed, especially when Relena wanted something or rather someone alse to hold besides Fluffy, the bear that Heero had gotten her for her birthday. The bear was now a lighter shade of Chocolate, and some matching patches followed here and there. The dark black beady eyes glared at her, and that reminded her of him. Sighing, she began to cry, taking hold of Fluffy. Crying onto Fluffy made her realize that she hated Heero, for making her feel all those feelings that made her cry, and die inside slowly, because that what she was doing, everyday, every minute, and every second of her lonely life. She was dying,
inside she was dying, no one knew that, no one cared. Her brother didn't, Noin didn't, no one did. And by the judgment of Heero, he never knew. Crying even more now, she fell into an uneasy sleep, with dreams of pure loneliness.
That morning she woke up, and went down stairs. Sitting on the couch, she turned on the vid TV, seeing it come down from the ceiling, and then turning on. Raising the volume she listen to the news.
"...And today in news, a group called Universal Eve's Destiny, left a letteron the respectably on the flight of Milliardo Peacecraft, saying that they have Miss.Relena Dorlin Peacecraft taken hostage. They wish to have the new mobile suit, meaning the mobile suits created this fall in Colony L 4. If they don't have the mobile suits by there reach by the 231st day, they will..."  Relena didn't hear the rest when a voice reached her ears.
"You know they are coming, or are after you." A cranky voice called. Turning around she came to face with DR. J sitting on a chair in the Dinning room table.
"What are you doing here? I mean not that your not welcomed or anything...I mean...What can I help you with?" Relena stuttered, the last time she met with with DR. J was when her father died.

"I came here to help you," He continued "Come with me,"
"No...The people need me. I can't go I told you before!" Relena said, remembering the time DR. J had offered her the same thing he had offered Heero. No Emotion.
"The people think your dead, trapped, captured. They don't believe in you anymore, like this you would be helping more, not just sitting there signing papers, but fighting for your peace, something people cannot accomplish for you." DR. J said advancing to her, putting his metal hand on her shoulder, he pleaded again.
"No...I can't, I'll be killing people, innocent people, with families, I won't take their lives!" Relena cried.
"You'd be doing yourself a favor lad, besides people who begin wars are the guilty ones, they start the wars, believing the would win the battle, they end up dying, if they had a family, wouldn't you think they would have backed out?" DR. J said.
"What about those who are forced to begin a war." Relena questioned wanting some way out of this.
"They die in honor, but their is no such thing for someone being forced into war, one who starts a war dies with it." He continued.
"Do it for your people." He said, pleading something he never did, Heero had given in.
"Fine, I will." With that, it was the last day of everything, saying bye to her emotions, tears, loneliness, and Heero, Anita Peace, was born.

~~~End Of Chapter 13~~~