A/N: Hello everyone. I know you must be all tired of my stories and me as I said before I may have a new story coming out soon, but this story comes first. It isn’t a chapter story, it’s just something I was thinking about. I don't own Gundam Wing.
All I want is you to say is,
"I love you." (Bubbles1287)
By: Despair’s Desire
Drip, Drip. Relena puts her hands together and looks around. She felt
cold, very cold. She shivered and hugged herself. She bit down on her lip,
as the feeling of loneliness over came her senses. All around her was just
blackness and her body shivered. ‘Where’s that dripping sound coming from?’
She thought. Tears fell from her eyes and made a dripping sound as it hit
the floor. Now there were two dripping sounds. She ran, closing her eyes
tightly slipped and fell backwards, but instead of falling on the ground
she kept falling down. She put her hand up, for someone to catch her, someone
to stop her from falling deeper into the sorrow of her soul.
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"Huh?" Relena whispered as she opened her eyes. She sat up, then looked around and noticed she was still in her room. She ran a hand through her hair and the other on her chest. She was breathing hard and rapidly. She calmed herself down and she closed her eyes. She opened her eyes as she heard the sound of dripping again. She got up and walked over to her bathroom.
"I left on the water to the sink." She whispered to herself. She turned
it off and walked back into her room. There was dead silence all around
her and felt alone again. She looked at her teddy bear that Heero gave
her and broke down crying again.
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"Duo, where is he?" Relena said, slamming her hands on her desk. Duo sat in the chair on the other side of her desk. He looked at her shocked as she hit the desk with her fists. Relena asked Duo to come to her office, because they had to talk. She knew that Duo would know where Heero was after the day she broke up with him.
"Relena, I promised not to tell." Duo said, about to fall off his chair. He had been a friend with Relena after the war and better friends with Heero. He had been there for both of them after they broke up and Heero left Relena.
"But Duo, I need to see him. I still love him." Relena said and sat down in her chair.
"I can’t tell you where he lives. I’m sorry." Duo said and looked down.
"I understand Duo. Can you at least tell me if he lives on the colony or the earth?" Relena said and looked up at Duo.
"I’m not sure." Duo said and looked up at Relena. Relena sighed and smiled at Duo.
"Well, I’m sorry for yelling at you." Relena said quietly.
"It’s okay ‘Lena. I understand. I’m sure you will find him. I gotta go or Hilde will kill me for coming home late." Duo said and ran out the door. Relena smiled and put her head into her hands.
"Why did I have to be so stupid?" Relena whispered and cried to herself.
Flashback:
Relena walked to Heero’s room. She sighed and knocked on the door. Heero opened the door.
"Hi, Relena." He said quietly in his monotone voice.
"Hello, Heero. I want to ask you something important." Relena said and looked him into the eye.
"Okay." Heero said. She looked into his eyes.
"Heero are we getting anywhere in our relationship?" Relena asked in a quiet voice. Heero stared at her blankly.
"What is that supposed to mean?" Heero asked quietly.
"It means that I love you a lot and we’ve been going out for a year. Do you love me back, Heero?" Relena asked. Heero looked down and sat down on the couch. Relena sat next to him.
"I don’t know." Heero whispered.
"How don’t you know?" Relena asked with a tiny bit of anger in her voice.
"I mean that, I don’t know if I love you or not." Heero asked.
"So why are you still going out with me? Do you even like me?" Relena said with more anger in her voice.
"Relena leave me alone. I don’t want to answer your stupid questions." Heero said calmly.
"They aren’t stupid, Heero. If you don’t care about me, why are we going out? Why do you go places with me and kiss me, am I your toy or something." Relena said standing up and looking down at him. Tears started in her eyes and Heero just looked down. He stood up and turned towards her.
"Move." He said quietly. She stared at him in disbelief and moved.
"Heero, do you want to be with me anymore?" Relena asked quietly. He just walked towards his room and didn’t answer her.
"Fine it’s… it’s over." Relena said choking on her tears. Heero walked into his room and slammed the door. Relena walked out of his room. She shut the door and leaned her back against it. She fell to the floor and broke out crying outside of his door. About an hour later she went home and cried more. She talked to Duo for support or when she couldn’t reach Duo, she talked to Quatre. Heero left the next day to somewhere Relena didn’t know about. She cried everyday, wishing he’d come back even if he didn’t love her.
"Heero, all I want you to say is I love you." She would whisper as she sobbed.
End of Flashback:
Relena went home, because she felt sick and didn’t want to do any work. When she got home, she ran up to her room. It was late at night and she hadn’t eaten anything all day. She usually didn’t eat much anyway so today wasn’t different from any other day. She lay down on her bed and picked up her teddy bear. She kissed it on the mouth and threw it across the room. She got up and walked to her balcony. She looked up at the stars and smiled. She looked down and frowned.
"I hate my life." She whispered. She went by the ledge of the balcony and leaned against it. She smirked to herself.
"I’m Relena Peacecraft, the stupidest girl on Earth. I fight for peace and all that other junk." She whispered to herself.
"I can’t see how I can fight for peace when I don’t have peace in my heart anymore." She looked up again. Tears gleamed from her aquarium eyes.
"The world has peace, I don’t understand why it needs me. I should just kill myself and no one would care." She sighed and shook her head.
"I’m not thinking straight." She whispered and went into her room.
"Where are you, Heero?" She took out a suitcase and packed her stuff inside. She had to go on a trip to L1 for her job. The phone rang and she picked it up.
"Hello." Relena said.
"Hey Relena. It’s Milliardo I want to tell you, we found out where Heero is." He said in a happy voice. Relena smiled.
"Where?" She said in a happy voice.
"He lives on L1. I’ll fax you where his apartment is." Milliardo said.
"Okay, thank you Milliardo. I’m going to L1 tomorrow morning, so this is good. Bye. I love you so much." Relena said.
"I love you too, bye." Milliardo said and hung up. Relena kissed the phone and hung up. She went to the fax in her room and waited for the address.
"Yes." She whispered.
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It was the next day and Relena was sitting at a meeting with stupid
old man arguing. She was in a good mood, because she would be able to see
Heero today. She sighed and smiled. 'It has been a year since I've seen
you, Heero. And now I'll see you again.' She thought and tried to focus
on the conversation.
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Heero's job was to fix airplanes and test pilot them. He was working and a girl with whitish blondish walked over to him.
"Heero you want to go get a drink at the bar after work today?" She asked. Heero nodded and she smiled.
"Okay. I'll meet you there at 8:00, okay." She said.
"Fine." Heero said and kept on working. She turned around and went back to work knowing he didn't like to talk. Her name was Novar and ever since Heero started working there she hit on him. She would ask Heero out places and sometimes he would except. He didn't really talk much, but she still liked him. Heero still liked Relena; he didn't even really care about Novar. He thought Relena hated him, so he left and started to drink. He was becoming an alcoholic and he was only 18. Novar would sit there with him asking him questions, like Relena did sometimes and it would remind him of her. He didn't do anything, he just thought about Relena. He never kissed her, he just kept on drinking. He drank until he got a headache or he felt like he was going to throw up. But he drank everyday. Before he knew it work was over and he got changed at his locker. Novar saw him and waved. Then she yelled,
"I'll see you at 8:00." Then ran off with her friends.
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Relena's meeting was done at 9:00 and she was tired. It was 10:00 already and she went to her hotel. She was changed already and driving to Heero's apartment. It wasn't that close so it would probably take an hour to get there.
An hour later: 11:00
Relena made it to his apartment. She knocked on the door, but nobody answered. She kept on knocking until she heard voices of people coming up the stairs. She hid at the corner, so no one would see her. Her eyes went wide when she saw Heero and some girl holding hands. They reached his apartment and the girl said,
"Heero, you shouldn't drink so much. You always get headaches." Heero smirked and let go of her hand.
"Goodnight, Heero. I'll see you tomorrow." She said and looked into his eyes. She kissed him on the lips. It caught him off guard and he moved back, hitting his head on the door. She stuck her tongue in his mouth and he closed his eyes, then kissed back. She never kissed him on the lips before; she only kissed him on the cheek maybe once or twice. Tears started in Relena's eyes as she watched them kiss. Novar put her arms around his neck and deepened the kiss. 'This feels so familiar, like when I was with Relena.' Heero thought. 'Relena.' As soon as he thought of her, his eyes went wide and he moved her away from him.
"What's wrong?" Novar asked Heero. He realized that he had only been hanging around her, because it reminded him of Relena.
"I'll see you tomorrow." He whispered and Novar nodded her head, then walked away. Heero wiped his mouth and then opened the door to his apartment. As soon as the door closed Relena fell to the floor sobbing. 'How could I lose him.' She thought. Relena sat there sobbing for a half an hour and then she came up with a decision. She got up from the floor and wiped her eyes. She inhaled and then exhaled, then walked up to his door. She knocked on it softly and started to breathe rapidly again, but shook her head and calmed down. She heard Heero coming towards the door and put her hands to her sides. Heero opened the door and his eyes went wide when he noticed Relena standing there in front of the door.
"Relena." He whispered. Relena started to tremble as she smiled slowly.
"Hello, Heero. May I please come in?" She whispered. Heero nodded and Relena walked in. She looked down as tears formed in her eyes.
"Heero, did I lose you?" Relena whispered.
"What do you mean?" Heero said. Relena turned around and walked towards him, putting her arms around his neck. Then burying her head into his chest.
"Heero please come back to me, even if you don't love me?" Relena said.
" I don't know, Relena." Heero whispered. Relena eyes went in shock and then anger. She released him from her embrace and stared into his eyes.
"I have lost you. I've lost you and you've found someone else." She whispered and looked down.
"No." Heero said, but was cut off by Relena.
"Don't lie, Heero. I saw you kissing her, I have lost you." Relena said. She moved her hands went up to his hair and played with it. Looking into his blank eyes. "I knew it." She whispered and moved her hands from his hair to his face. She smiled and Heero moved his arms around her slim waist. Relena smirked and put her face to his ear.
"But I won't lose you, now that I have you here with me." She whispered softly into his ear. She pulled back from his ear and kissed his cheek.
"Relena, I thought it was over." Heero whispered. Relena kissed his forehead, his cheeks, and then she traced his lips and started to kiss his neck. Every touch felt like a burn on Heero's body, a burn of passion. He knew what she was trying to do to him and didn't want to do it. He wasn't even sober, seeing he just got drunk.
"Relena stop." Heero whispered. She was unbuttoning his shirt and didn't listen to him, even though she heard him. "Stop, please." He whispered.
"Why Heero?" She whispered and looked up at him.
"Because you don't want this." He said. "And I don't want this." Relena put her hands on his cheeks and brought his head down. She crushed her lips into his and kissed him deeply. Heero kissed back a little and Relena stuck her tongue in his mouth. Relena smiled in the kiss. She broke the kiss and put her mouth back to his ear.
"Now do you want this?" She whispered. Heero shook his head Relena let go of him and sat on the couch nearby.
"Then what do you want? What can I do for you stay with me? Say sorry. I am sorry. Do you want me to give you everything I have; I'll do anything, for nothing in return. Just you, I love you so much Heero and I can't get over you. If you died I would kill myself, where you go I want to go. I want to be with you for the rest of my life and now it won't happen, because I did something stupid and lost you to someone prettier than me. Now that I am here, I want to know if I can be with you, so I won't be alone anymore and I'll always be alone without you. Heero, all I want you to say is, I love you." Relena said with all her heart. She stared into his eyes and so no expression in them and she hugged her legs to her chest.
"Relena you never lost me. I love you." Heero whispered and looked at her.
"You love me, Heero?" Relena whispered.
"Yes, I love you Relena." Heero said. Relena smiled and got up from the couch.
"I love you too." She whispered as she hugged him tightly against her body.
"I love you too, Relena." Heero said and smiled. Relena pulled back a little.
"Heero, you are drunk. How do I know you are telling the truth?" Relena asked concerned.
"How about if I come back to your house and I'll tell you the same thing,
when I'm not drunk anymore." Heero said. Relena smiled and hugged him again.
The next day, Heero quit his job and moved to Relena's house. He told Relena
that he loved her again when he was sober and asked her to marry him.
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Relena's Dream:
Relena was falling and she closed her eyes tightly. She opened her eyes as she stopped falling.
"Huh." She whispered. She looked up and was met by Heero's cute face looking down at her, smiling.
"Heero." She whispered. Heero nodded and placed her down on the ground. Relena hugged him and smiled.
"I love you so much Relena." Heero whispered.
"Yes, Heero. All I want you to say is, I love you and I'll never be
alone." She whispered.
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A/N: Here's a story I started a long time ago, I originally going to
finish it, but I had an idea. I hope you liked it. Lots of reviews, lots
of reviews. Thanks to all of you that read this story. I was having problems
finding a name for this story, plus I was having trouble on what I was
going to write. I'm also sorry if the font is small, because I put it on
Font 10, but it might come out larger when I submit it. Review. Was it
good, bad, what parts do you think was really bad and I don't know just
what you think. Okay, now I'm done with my author notes and I'll be going.
-Despair's Desire