HEERO
I clenched my jaw, saw Duo frowning, and shot him a cold glance. He shrugged and headed for Quatre and the others.
Maybe I should take this risk, my mind urged. Maybe...maybe it's time for me to finally accept this love.
I shook my head, trying to dismiss it. A Gundam Pilot would consider love an obstacle he must destroy.
I glanced over at Mireka and Quatre. They'd gaze at each other from time to time, they'd make little shy smiles towards one another.
And yet Quatre...could he really be braver than I? He's chosen to accept his feelings for the ex-enemy, even though he's afraid of what it would bring. He chose to accept it...for her sake.
I shut my eyes and turned to the door. I knew she was still there, leaning against the wall just outside, but my feet wouldn't budge, my legs refused to move, and I stood there like a statue.
She's been everything to you! Your love, your life, and you keep denying her very existence...
I sighed, my gaze locking on the door again. I picked one foot up, then the other and kept on going until I got to the door. I paused before exiting, then walked on out and turned to face Relena.
"What?" she asked softly, her eyes falling to the floor.
I craved to wipe her tears away, craved to just touch her, touch her skin, touch her living, breathing being, but I knew if I did, I wouldn't stop there. There would be no turning back.
"Relena, what I said was wrong," I began strongly. "But not untrue. You knew that going would risk your life, but you went anyway. Why. Why did you go?"
Don't tell me, my inner consciousness demanded. I don't want to hear.
"I did it for you, Heero," she said. Her eyes took on a sort of sad look, and my hand lifted to her face. The tip of my finger brushed her cheek, and I shuddered from within.
She held my wrist to her, keeping my hand there, and when I tired to take it away, she wouldn't let me.
Our eyes locked, and there was a sensation for me of falling...but into what? Falling into a pit where I could never again see light? Or just the opposite?
"Heero, I went...because I love you. You must know that."
My soul stung, my breathing grew harsh as she put her hands behind my neck and slowly pulled me down to her. My heart pulsated, slow and deafeningly loud, in my head.
Ba-dum...ba-dum...ba-dum...
My heart rate didn't speed up, as I'd expected, but slowed down, as she got closer, far too close for my liking.
Ba-dum......ba-dum......ba-dum......
Is this what love is? I thought through a hazy, desire-filled mind. Is this...how it feels...us two...the world...gone...
My thoughts wandered, and the only thing my world focused on was my heart.
Myself.
And this girl.
RELENA
I lowered his head down to me, rubbed his lips against mine. Agony, pure agony to tease him at such a time.
He pressed me against him, moving his lips against mine, making the kiss fuller, sweeter, and the world and its minions disappeared into a hazy, desiring mist that shrouded us two.
My stomach got fluttery, light, as he lost control and drew us deeper into recklessness.
"Oh, Heero," I murmured, my fingers wrapping around locks of brown hair. I pressed him closer to me.
"Relena," he mumbled, his eyes closed, his arms around me, rubbing my back. His hands were rummaging around on my back, snuggling their way inside my shirt. His lips touched my lips, my jaw, my neck, blessing me with such a sweet feeling that...
This only happens in the movies, I thought. This isn't supposed to be real. Is this really happening to me? I'm...falling deeper and deeper into love with this boy...maybe...I should stop...
"Relena," I heard him exhale, the word trapped within the boundaries of a sigh.
I love you, I repeated in my own head the words I should have uttered long ago. I miss you. I want to be with you forever...there are absolutely no words that can...explain...my love...
"Stop," he said, his voice thick. "Stop, oh...God, stop..."
He turned his head away, but I held him closer to me, not wanting it to stop. Not wanting this feeling to go away. Afraid that it would.
"Stop, Relena!" He pushed me back, turned away, and put a hand to his forehead. His back was turned to me. "I..."
He was breathing hard, and he shook violently.
"Heero, you're trembling," I whispered, and I reached out to place a hand on his shoulder. "What...what's wrong?"
"Nothing is wrong," he said softly, shuddering. Then he shook his head. "No. I'm wrong. Everything is wrong. You're wrong."
His words stung on contact, and I took in a sharp intake of breath.
"Relena, I'm afraid," he said suddenly. He shook his head again, swallowed. "I'm afraid of this...this feeling. Whenever I see you, my...my heart, it contracts, there's this smothering feeling I get...I'm afraid of it, Relena."
I stared at his heaving back, and a deep sorrow filled me.
"Heero, don't be afraid of it," I breathed. "I'm not. I'm trying to...accept it, I guess."
"That's just what the problem is!" He whipped around, and with an utter shock, I saw tears fall from his eyes. His expression was cold, angry, hard, and cruel, but his eyes were sad, tender, lost, and afraid. "It seems that you have more courage to accept it than...than I do."
"Oh, Heero..." My hand grasped his, and he cringed for a second, but then relaxed. "Heero, you're not alone. Do you honestly think you're the only one who's afraid of this? I'm terrified of this, but I give it a chance...because I love you...so much, that it obliterates all fear. It makes me feel so safe knowing I'm in your arms, how could I be afraid of it?"
His eyes glimmered, and my hand came up to wipe his grieved tears. His hand held mine in place, and his eyes held such sadness that it pained me just to gaze into them.
His head came down, and his breath was warm against my skin.
"You are so brave, Relena," he whispered into my ear.
So. This was my life. Heero Yuy and I, kissing in the middle of a hallway.
It wasn't a fairy tale, but it was good enough for me. We would never be Quatre and Mireka, hopelessly head over heels for each other...but we would be us.
And I prayed, I longed, never to lose us again, after we've worked so hard to achieve it.
In the misty realms of our passion, I thought I heard someone whispering. Was it, could it possibly be? Heero...
"I love you, Relena...oh, God, I love you..."