The Pleasure of Being

Alone

Chapter 4

Relena’s POV

I went to sleep as soon as I got home last night. I still couldn’t believe, it was going all-wrong. Heero and I were supposed to have a nice week alone together. But instead he hates me and I feel sick. We will never talk to each other and it was my fault.

I woke up, when I heard the vid-phone ring. I went downstairs to pick it up. I turned it on and Noin was on the other line.

"Hello, Relena." She said

"Good Morning, Miss Noin." I said, looking at her sleepily.

"Relena, I’m your sister in law. So call me, Lucrezia. I’m sorry to wake you up, but can you get, Heero." She said, smiling. The sound of his beautiful name, woke me up

"Sure. Hold on." I turned around to get him, when I saw him walking down the staircase. He was so handsome. The way he moved, the right way. It could make your heart explode; I just stared at him. He walked past me, to the vid-phone.

"Hai." He said to Noin. Oh, how much I loved it, when he spoke Japanese.

"Hello, Heero. I’m sorry to rush you into work, but we have an emergency. There was a mistake made in the special science lab and it made the whole system shut down. So all the viles to save people won’t be able to be used. We are sure, you could start the system. Do you accept?" Noin replied.

"Yeah. When do I start?" he said, with his usual cold stare.

"Tomorrow or today, if you want. It should only take 2 days, but we need it done, soon." Noin said.

"Ok." he said and then put on his jacket and left.

"Bye, Relena." Noin said.

"Bye, Lucrezia and say hi to Milliardo for me." I said, in a slight happy, sad, and sleepy tone. She nodded and hung up. I sighed and ran upstairs to cry. This was definitely bad. Heero is mad at me, he has to go to work, and I’ll be alone with a broken heart for the rest of the week.

While I was crying, I realized that I ran to Heero’s room, instead of my own. I loved the scent of his pillow. I loved his scent, it smelled really good. Like a passionflower, or Suave Lavender shampoo. I could smell it, forever and never get tired of it. He always smelled nice, even though I don’t think he wears cologne. I stopped crying to find myself in a deep sleep.

Relena’s Dream

I was in a garden, with beautiful flowers and roses. I was wearing a tube top and a loose skirt, which went to my ankles. The color of my clothing was lavender and my sandals were the same color. I noticed that I was standing in shiny blue water, which reached my ankles. The scent of Heero surrounded me. I felt as if I was in heaven, I bent down to look at one of the flowers that were in the water. I touched the flower and it died. Tears were shining from my eyes and I looked around to see the flowers around me die, too. I got up and ran around, looking for a way to get out.

"Heero." I whispered. Then, hands covered with a dark mist grabbed me and pulled me to the ground. The ground broke and I struggled to get out of their grasp. I started to cry,

"Heero, please. Help me. I’m sorry, don’t leave me alone." I looked up to see Heero looking down at me.

"Relena, I’m sorry. You don’t love me." Then, the ground closed.

"No, Heero. I love you, please. Heeroooooo." I screamed and went down into the darkness.

End of Relena’s Dream

I woke up, still lying on Heero’s bed. I got up and went in the bathroom. I looked into the mirror and cried again. I sat in the bathroom, hugging my legs to my chest.

I sat there crying for about, a half an hour. Then, I got up and I took turned on the shower. I got undressed and walked into the shower. I sat there curled into a ball with my head down. My eyes were blank and all I could think was, ‘Heero, doesn’t love me, anymore. He doesn’t love me, he never loved me.’ I got up and washed myself, then got out. I put my towel over myself and walked into my room. I looked out the window, to see that it was dark. I looked at my clock and it read, ‘10:30p.m.’ Heero still wasn’t home and he left early in the morning. I put on my pajamas with the angels on it and walked up to my balcony. I opened the beautiful glass doors and walked out onto the balcony. I leaned over the rail, to look at the beautiful garden underneath. It was beautiful, just like my dream. I smelled the night air, it smelled like air. (Duh, of course.) Not like Heero, that was the only difference of her dream and real life. I looked up at the sky, the stars were shining and so was the heavenly glow of the moon. It was getting cold, so I decided to go inside. I didn’t want to sleep in my room, so I walked into Heero’s room again. Before I went to Heero’s room, I grabbed my teddy bear, which he gave me and brought it with me. I went under his sheets and cuddled up with my bear, then fell asleep.

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------------------------------------------ I woke up, in the middle of the night. I sat up and realized I was in Heero's room. I lay back down and heard, light breathing next to me. I turned my head and saw Heero sleeping. I smiled and cuddled next to him, then fell back asleep.

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I woke up, but this time it was morning. I looked around the room and on the bed to see if Heero was there, but he left already. It was already Friday and Heero still wasn't talking to me. I was very hungry, because I hadn't ate in 3 days, due to depression. I went downstairs and looked into the fridge for any food. There was left over cake on the counter and I had some. (Don't worry it wasn't stale. ^. ~) I took a shower, brushed my teeth, got dressed and went outside for a walk. I walked to the park, first and just watched couples, walk past or families having a picnic. Everyone was so happy, not like me. I was the one that had to be in depression. I got even more depressed and I left the park, to walk some more. I walked all day, thinking about everything. I looked at my watch and it said,'9:00.' I went to the bar again and got a few drinks. People asked me to dance, but I denied. I wasn't in the mood to dance, with anyone. It was 1:00, when I decided to leave the bar. I walked inside and all the lights were off. I took a quick shower and I walked into Heero's room. He was sleeping and I couldn't even hear him breathe. I bent down and whispered into his ear,

"Goodnight, my sweet Heero." Then kissed him on the cheek and went to my room to sleep.

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It was Saturday and I couldn't stand it, anymore. This was the last day; Heero and I had together. The whole week had been a waste and I was going to apologize or Heero and I would never have a relationship. I walked into Heero's room to check and see if he was there, but he wasn't. I got dressed and walked to the Preventer base. I walked in and asked for Noin. They told me, where her office was and I went there. I knocked on the door and I heard Noin say,

"Come in." I walked in and saw Noin working.

"Hello, Lucrezia. I'm sorry to bother you, but where is Heero?" I said. She looked up and said,

"Hello, Relena. I'll show you, he's almost done." I nodded and followed Noin as she got up, then walked out the door.

"In there, Relena. That is where, he is working." She said as she pointed to a closet, looking room in front of me. I nodded and said,

"Can I go in?" She looked at me, then nodded. She walked away and I took a deep breath. I opened the door and saw Heero's body, lying in front of me. His head was under this big hole and I couldn't see his face. I stepped in the small space. I had to put my legs on each side of his body. I closed the door and bent down. I was on top of him with my legs wide open.

"Heero." I said calmly.

"Huh." he said and hit his head. I heard him grunt and I giggled. He slipped his head out of the hole and then he sat up.

"What, Relena?" he said coldly. I looked into his eyes and said,

"Heero. I'm sorry for yelling at you. I'm sorry for being stupid. I love you, Heero." I said letting the tears fall down my face. He just stared at me and I put my hand on his cheek. Then I put my arms around his neck and laid my head on his chest. He pulled me away from himself, gently and cupped my chin. He gently put my head up to look in my eyes and said in a gentle tone,

"Say it again, Relena."

"I love you, Heero." I said. He wiped away my tears and gently kissed me. I put my arms around his neck and kissed him more passionately. We broke the kiss and he said,

"I Love You, Relena." I smiled and hugged him again. He hugged me back, maybe this wasn't such a bad week, after all."

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I'm sorry, I know you've been waiting. This is the end or should I write an epilogue. If you think I should, tell me what I should write in it. I really just want to write my story, "Dead while Living." Pure angst fic, I have so many ideas for it. Well, what do you think? Review.