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Author

Title

Description


Saeyva

The Joy of One Dream

Prologue

Sphinx's Description: A horrible nightmare finally forces Heero to realize his love for Relena.  The only problem is how to tell her he truly loves her.

Genre: Romance

Sailor Event Horizon

Angel

WOW!!! I love this author!!! She always has a great way of really seeing into Heero's character. If anyone HAS anything BAD to say about this fic OMAE WO KOROSU! *sob**sob* That is if I can stop crying long enough to do it.

Sailor Event Horizon

More Than Friends

A fanfic about how Duo and Heero become better friends. And no, not in THAT way. This is a non yaoi page after all. Duo says some pretty mean things though. You have to forgive him, he was upset when he said them :( Definitely worth taking some for. I love everything this author writes!

Sailor Event Horizon

Only Once

Somehow the pilots mothers have all been brought from another timeline to see their children. This fic revolves around the conversation that Heero has with his mother. A GREAT fic which really hit home for me.

Sailor Saturn

Operation Capella

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4

This is cool because there's a whole bunch of different characters dragged into here. A bunch of sub plots add some depth, so this is a VERY interesting start!.

Sailor Saturn

Perfect Soldiers' Lament

The first poem to be hosted here! It's from Heero's point of view while he thinks about his life.

Sarah Deb Stars

Heero's return

Mwahaha! This one is kinda funny. Watch Zechs totally freak when he finds out that Heero and his sister are going out.

Savy

There's No Place That Far

Hypnotize the Moon

*Sobs and reaches for her kleenex* Heero is a father of two and Relena had been killed. The interaction between Heero and his children and the overall tenderness of both fics is touching and absolutely beautiful. Both songfics follow the same storyline.

Savy

Lucky

This author has songfics that I can actually sit through! Love the last line of this one...

Savy

Masks

Excellent literary piece. It's so refreshing to read great character studies of Relena and Heero!

Saz

'Careful What You Wish For

Rose's description: Mwahahahahahaha!  A fanfic about me!  Okay, not really, but I'm in there!  This is a funny funny fic about a few things we've ALL wished for....And an author's one chance at living out our dreams.  Too bad none of them QUITE ended up as planned....  *lol*  

Saz

Crystal Shards

Rose's description: A songfic to Goo Goo Dolls' song Iris.  . Relena could always see through him like a sheet of glass. She could even see the crystal shards around his soul. 

Sereace

Second Time For Love

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7

Rose's description: Relena leaves Heero because of his jealous tendencies, only to find herself kidnapped by a former boyfriend intent on having her all to himself.  The reluctant brothers-in-law find themselves teaming up to thwart evil plans.

Warning: some sexual "remembrances", nothing TOO graphic.  Some Lime.

Genre: Action. Drama. Romance.

Serendipity

Candle on the Water

Rose's description: Coming Soon.

 

 

Shevey

Date For The Dead

Sphinx's Description: A fic with a unique concept extremely well pulled off. I don't want to give too much away, but Relena is VERY angry at Heero and decides to do some venting to relieve her pain and sorrow.

Shevey

Faze Me

A poem from Relena's point of view about her desires, her needs, and what she wants from Heero Yuy.

Shevey

Grace in Hell's land

Author's description: A poem from Heero's POV of what he gets emotionally from the battle field.

Genre: Angst

Shevey

A Manly War

Heero and Zechs find an amusing way to see who gets to spend time with Relena, but what does Relena think about this?


Shevey

I Don't Understand Hate

Katana's description: A chilling poem from deep in the mind of Relena.

Shevey

Nihilism

Prelude
Chapter 1

Rose's description: How far can the human psyche be pushed before it goes over the edge?  Relena's disappointment in her dreams, and Heero's nightmares of his past clash in their hopes for the future.  Very dark.  Prepare for some blood. 

Shevey

Peace in You

Author's description: Relena's desires and needs about Heero shown through a short poem from her point of view. Could be considered on the limey side. 

Shevey

Playing House

Prelude
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Epilogue

Author's Summary- Heero calls Relena up after a long time of silence from his part. Not only is she surprises by his 'new personality,' but by his request. Without thinking, she dives into the mission with him, only to find herself stuck between a rock and a hard place.

UPDATE: Fantastic fanart pic by Stefy that goes along with the kiss in the kitchen - Chapter 8.  Click HERE.

Shevey

Playing House: Tea Time

Prologue
Chapter 1

Author's Description:  Sequel to Playing House. A new ESUN project has her tripping over paper work while Heero lives a peaceful life at home. The only time they see each other is at breakfast just to say good-bye. Relena, now in a despreate fight to say their relationship, turns to the place where it all began. The tiny cabin in the moutains and the woman that lives there. This time, Relena is the one pouring the tea and Heero is found stuck between a rock and a hard place.

Shi no Tenshi

Bedtime Story

A daughter ask for a bedtime story, and her mother tells her a tale of a princess and a Gundam pilot.

Shi no Tenshi

Why Me?

This is a short monologue from Relena's POV about Heero.

Shinigami Zero

Christiansands

A wonderful songfic. What if Heero weren't an assassin but a normal citizen on L1 during the war and Relena was all alone?

Shizuka Yuy

Innocent Soul

Relena is the 'new girl at school'. Oh dear...

Silent Moon Sphinx

Beyond Betrayal

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9 
Chapter 10
Chapter 11

Rose's description: Business dealings and government contracts make Relena an important player.  Heero's been gone from her life for a while now, and a new guy has moved into a part of her heart.  When trouble brews, however, her protector steps in to sort out the pieces of a dangerous puzzle.  But how does he fit in her life after all this time?  And who is the mysterious Robin Faire?

Silent Moon Sphinx

Into the Storm

Prologue
Chapter1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12

Twelve part series dealing with Heero and Relena. I especially like the part where she's horse back riding! Nice switching of roles ne?

Silent Moon Sphinx

Healing the Heart- Relena’s Story

A continuation of the story "Into the Storm" located somewhere above. Relena gets into a car accident and has to stay in Heero's apartment for a few days 0.o

Silent Moon Sphinx

Healing the Heart- Heero's Story: Final Transformation

Continuation of Healing the Heart: Relena's Story located  above. Has a dash of sci-fi, a dash of romance. Heero discovers a mysterious stone on one of Jupiter's moons and brings it back home. Now someone is after him. Gotta love it *wink*.

Silent Moon Sphinx

Forever, I Will Love You

Don't let the title fool you, this is very well pulled off. The wording and imagery is quite beautiful, it left me with a flushed face.

Silent Moon Sphinx

Finally and Forever

My first go at a deathfic. Story takes place from Relena's view and then Heero's. It describes what happens when the Perfect Soldier is not able to save his Princess in time...

Silent Moon Sphinx

Tuxedo Rose

Page 1

Page 2

Page 3

Page 4

Page 5

Rose's description: Sphinx has a special place in my heart, not only for her drawing talent (which she has plenty of) but because - AAAAAAH!  She drew me!  
**does little happy dance**

A cute cute cute comic that plays on the Sailor Moon Tuxedo Mask guy only in the Gundam Universe (and I SWEAR I'm not biased, no really, I'm not *lol)

Wow, can she draw, or can she draw?????  **loud applause**  Thanks again Sphinx! **hugs**

Silent Moon Sphinx

Tuxedo Rose 2: A Second Chance

Page 1

Page 2

Page 3

Page 4

Page 5

Page 6

Rose's description: A sequel to the original "Tuxedo Rose" (definitely requested based on SPHINX'S talent as an artist - have you all seen the Destiny picture featured on our Nominees page?  Sphinx drew it and Jenny Bird cgi colored it.  What a great team!!!)

Again, Tuxedo Rose *cough* me *cough* conspires to get our two favorite characters together.  But this time I have a little help. ^__~

**glomps Sphinx**  This was my birthday present!!!! THANK YOU, SPHINX!!!!!

PS - What MR. Black Rose doesn't know...won't hurt him, right guys? ^__~

Silver Dragonfly

Follow My Heart

Part One
Part Two
Part Three
Part Four
Part Five
Part Six

I was glad to see this one finished! It’s quite lovely. Part five is nice for anyone who enjoys the other couples of GW because it seems to cover all of them. I love happy endings!

Silver Swan

It Stands For

Author's Summary:  Heero finds a special way to tell Relena how he feels...

Genre: Romance

Silvertoekee

My Heart and Soul

Prologue
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4

Relena stands in the rain and feels terribly lonely, while Heero receives an offer from Duo to help protect Relena.

Sio-San

Returning a Favor

Relena is abducted and undergoes a traumatizing experience. After saving her, Heero decides to show her how to live again the way she did for him. Warning: Citrusy and mentions of rape.

Sio-San

Finally Focused

Heero (much to his chagrin) hasn't been able to sleep for a while because of certain blonde, blue eyed beauty and gets stuck on bodyguard duty. Hm...I wonder what this could lead to? ^_~ Warnings: Citrusy, use of strong language, and Duo makes a pass at someone other than Hilde (nothing serious).

Sionna

Memory....Mine

Relena's reflections of her past and a happy occurence.

Smartycat

Numina

Prologue
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3

Summary coming soon

Star Sweeper

Breathe

A songfic about Relena finding love at a school dance.

Stella

All Day Long

The Way It Is

Dust In the Wind

Deliver Me

No One Like You

Full Title: All Day Long He Was Fighting For You

Rose's description: A songfic series....Heero almost smiles as he wishes Relena a happy birthday on the video camera greeting the Gundam pilots made for her.  That night, he comes to tell her goodbye - he has to leave for a mission with the Preventers.  And so he fights to protect her once again - her world, her future, and her gift to him.

Stella, Luvspook, and Black Rose

Across Enemy Lines

Rose's Description: AU, set during WWII.  The GW pilots are American soldiers in Europe. The fictional Sanq Kingdom is a new addition to the western front, and its leader (Relena) fights to keep its neutrality, and provide a safe haven for wounded soldiers. (the really wounded soldiers, thanks to Luvspook!) 

Check out the awesome fanart pic by Alexe!!!!!

Stella

Eternal Return

Wrapped Around Your Finger

Rose's description: A songfic series in the works.  Heero failed at his mission to kill Relena, but someone is back to finish the job.  

Stella

Heero's Peace

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7

Rose's description: An excellent story with all the necessary elements: Romance, Gundams, Action, and Revenge.  Heero's been watching her from the shadows...but something happens this day as he's caught by Quatre and Duo - and distracted for just a moment.  What happens next sets in motion a chain reaction that changes his life, and opens his heart.

Stella

The Sequel Series to Heero's Peace

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9

Rose's description: Ahhhh.....a sequel to the above story, and yet the difficulty is in telling you enough about this one w/o giving away what happens in the first series!  >_<  
The boys are keeping something from Relena....something big and made of Gundanium metal.  Why can't they give up those Gundams?  But as always, there's a method to their 'madness' and a new threat to the Peace of the Sanq and Lowen kingdoms.  And Heero has more to protect than 'just' Relena...

Stella

Who Wants to Live Forever?

Live Forever

This Love

End of the Innocence

You Must Love Me

The Last Words You Said

Rose's description: A songfic series from the author that does them best.  The first one recaps their special moments in the series...Then goes on to a between the series and EW storyline, where he is doing as he promised in Ground Zero - protecting her from the shadows.  But he can't help feeling that there is a deeper meaning to his promise to always protect her, and after EW she doesn't want to let him go....

Sub Rosa

Unmasking of A Cain

Chapter 1
Chapter 2

Author's Description: "It is true that you may fool all the people some of the time; you can even fool some of the people all the time; but you can't fool all of the people all the time." Abe.

Sugar Baby

Don't Say "Goodbye"

Katana's Description: A really sweet fic full of sap and love. Heero's OCC, but a dose of that can be a good thing now and again.

Sugar Baby

I Will Always Be With You

Katana's Description:
Relena is on the run, not sure where she is going. She ends up at Heero's apartment, and anything more said will spoil the story....


Sugar Baby

Nothing Can Come Between Us

Sequel to "I Will Always Be With You"

SunMoon009

The Museum

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4

The Gundam Wing gang goes to the museum because of an invitation from Quatre. Needless to say, most of the pilots had to be dragged there by their respective girlfriends. To make matters worse, they see a magical stone with unknown powers which is bound to cause a little mischief.

Sun's Golden Ray

Episode 1

Genre: Romantic Comedy

Sun's Golden Ray

Milliardo's Angels

In case you couldn't tell, a spoof on Charlie's Angels :) It turns the table for once because Catherine, Dorothy, and Relena end up saving Heero and company O.O

Suzanne Lara

From the Bottom of my Broken Heart

An original take on the Heero and Relena concept. A songfic which is kind of sad in the end...

Tealspark

Save the World

An introspective piece about Heero. This is so beautiful! It's another one worth your while.

Tenshu

The Laws of Gravity

Parts 1-2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5

Someone threatens to expose a secret that Relena has been harboring for three years. It proves to be the reason why Relena alienated herself from her friends and family, and trust me, you'll NEVER guess the surprise twist in this one.

Threnody

In Her Sorrow

BEAUTIFUL insight here. Makes an interesting point about Relena and Heero's relationship.

Tim Mandigma

The Passing of Silence

Part One

An extremely in-depth look at the psychology behind Heero and Relena's relationship. Note: a small slice of lime at the end, barely nothing.

Tina

Lost Soul

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5

Heero disappears in an explosion with no trace.

Tomboy Rose

Of Princesses And Un-heroes

Chapter 1

Author's Description: Relena is a kitchen wench at the Blushing Dragon Tavren until she serves some very strange guest. Sticks a LITTLE to the original GW storyline.

Genre: Action/Adventure, Romance, Fantasy, AU

Tomorrow

Changes Through Time

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5
Part 6
Part 7
Part 8
Part 9
Part 10

Author's Description: Heero, Relena, and the rest of the gang must face an evil which they could never dream of. Will they survive, or more importantly, will Heero and Relena's love? My 

Tomorrow

Do You Still Love Me?

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5
Part 6
Part 7
Part 8
Part 9

Author's Description: Sequel to "Changes Through Time. One evil has been vanquished, but another has taken its place. In a journey through the heavens and hell, can Heero possibly save Relena... or can he even save himself?

Tomorrow

Dark Wings of the Abyss

Author's Description: Relena's been sick lately, and just when she seems to be getting better, fate takes a turn for the worst. Adding to this distress, Relena claims to be receiving midnight visits from Heero... is he really coming, or is that just her 105 degree fever?

Tomorrow

A Faraway Union

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5
Part 6
Part 7

Author's Description: Heero and Relena are caught in a mythical venture that could possibly affect more than just themselves, but the delicate balance for another...

Tomorrow

Have I Lost My Place With You?

Author's Description: This story is from the point of view of Heero's three year old son... let's see what goes on in the mind of the child of the Perfect Soldier when his life is turned cmpletely upside-down.

Tomorrow

If You Only Knew Me

You Shall Fall By My Hand

Author's Description: Relena has been acting rather strangely lately, but no one seems to notice... except for Heero. Can he help Relena before it's too late... or is it already too late?

Author's Description: Sequel to "If You Only Knew Me". Heero has changed ever since that fateful day, but has it changed for the worst... or can things only get better?

Tomorrow

Legends Aren't Easy to Come By

Author's Description: In the recesses of space, Relena is held captive upon a ship ready for battle. When Heero comes to her rescue, is it he who will save her, or the other way around?

Tomorrow

Never to be Made... Only to be Broken

Author's Description: The world is at war against Relena and the Gundam Pilots over a simple piece of jewelry... or is this charm as simple as it seems? Could it possibly be the key to their entire futures?

Tomorrow

Reflections of the Spirit

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5
Part 6
Part 7
Part 8
Part 9

Author's Description: Not finished yet. At an ordinary ball, the evening is interrupted by an unintentional disruption... it's not an assassin. What's wrong with Relena, or is there nothing wrong at all?

Tomorrow

Sundown of a Dream

Author's Description: Why are Heero and Relena out in the wilderness together, and yet they don't even realize it? Why is that little dog and baby deer crossing their paths?

Trinity Angel

Dark Angel

Prologue

A mysterious character is sending warning messages to Relena about the end of peace. Is she trying to help? The two pairings are Heero x Relena and Trowa x an original character.

Twilight

A New Saga

Prelude

Author's Description: A new threat appears and they've got gundams. The GW pilots must rally against this new force, but a surprise appears a long the way. It seems that Relena and another girl, have been chosen to pilot two new gundams because of a special gene they carry....

Twilightshadow

To Dance Ice

Author changed penname to Goldberry.  You can find this fic on Fanfiction2.

Twilightshadow

In the Moon's Shadow

Author changed penname to Goldberry.  You can find this fic on Fanfiction2.

Twilight Soldier

Kiss Goodnight

Author changed penname to Goldberry.  You can find this fic on Fanfiction2.

Twilight Soldier

Heart of a Soldier

Part One
Part Two
Part Three
Concluding Chapters

Ooh, is this tension between Heero and Relena I sense? This could be interesting...

Twilight Soldier

Soul of the Soldier

The sequel to "Heart of the Soldier" where Heero and Relena are married with a daughter. Too bad there's a crazed scientist who's out to kidnap the little girl and wants to spread a deadly disease...

Twilight Soldier

Untitled

Author's Description: Heero and Relena meet up at a New Year's Eve party and take a walk on the beach...can you guess what happens next? ^_~

Valykrie

One Day to be Human

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4

A word from Valykrie

I've never come across anything quite like this idea. Relena is the angels people see when they're just about to die, and Heero is a suicidal boy living in Harlem. Relena meets him during the one day that she is given to be a human being and an interesting time ensues.

Violet Fairy Child

Break Stuff

Setting things Right

Rose's description: Break Stuff is a silly fic about the aftermath of an alcohol binge.

Setting things right was written under threat of her life from a certain nameless webmaster.  **Rose tries to look innocent but halo falls** Okay, ME!  It's about Heero's efforts to set things right after spending a wild night with a woman who was NOT Relena.  LIME!!!!

Violet Fairy Child

I Want You Bad

Rose's description: Heero's having daydreams, but is he ready for Relena to fulfill his desires? 

Violet Fairy Child

If You See Him

Rose's description: Songfic to the country song, If you see her/If you see him. Really sweet.  ^__^

Violet Fairy Child

On My Own

Rose's description: Angsty songfic to the song from Les Mis.  Relena loves Heero, but only on her own.

Violet Fairy Child

Once Upon A December

Rose's description: Songfic. Heero remembers meeting someone that Relena reminds him of, Relena's having dreams of the Sanq Kingdom. Trowa feels familiarity in Catherine....A story about the subconscious connection to the place we call home. 

Violet Fairy Child

Relena Begins

Rose's description:  Songfic done to Anna Begins.  The Progression of a former soldier realizing he's in love 

Violet Fairy Child

Why Don't You Stay

Rose's description: Songfic to "We've got tonight, babe, why Don't you Stay..."  When the sun comes up, the night is gone. Very sweet.

The Vision

Soul Searcher

An absolute must read!!! Heero finally decides to reclaim his humanity. This is extremely well done because he doesn't come off as overly sappy and stays perfectly in character. The descriptions of the Zero System among other things are very technically correct as well. Read it NOW!

Vitani

Flames of a Dwindling Soul

I used three boxes of kleenex when I cried. Relena and her little boy as she reads him bed-time stories are so incredibly touching and sweet that I misted up right away. And HOORAY! A perfect ending!

Vitani

Love's Last Fight

Heero and Duo complete a mission, but at the last minute some survivors attack and Heero doesn't come out well. Now Relena and Heero find the strength to tell each other how they feel.

Wa

Endless Rain

Author's description: The one who really loves you is me. How can you let me be in sorrow. The time when I really needed you, you didn't say anything and just walked away. All that I've done for you, didn't mean anything to you...................you had never felt it......


Wa

To the Heartbeats

Chapter 1-2
Chapter 3-4
Chapter 5-6
Chapter 7-8
Chapter 9-10
Chapter 11-12

Rose's description: Coming soon.

Genre: AU. Romance. Action.

War Dove

Wonderful Tonight

Rose's description: Songfic to Eric Clapton's hit. Heero loves her more than he could ever express...even when she drags him to those dinner affairs he hates so much. 
LIME!

Wing 0

Love Never Dies

Heero's dead... Just kidding! Read on to find out why "Love never dies".

Winggirl

A Night's Embrace

Part One
Part Two
Part Three
Part Four

Mars prologue
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven

During Heero's long absence Relena finds someone else. Who that certain someone is shatters Heero's friendship. Warning: Sort of citrusy in the beginning and some strong language at the end of part three The next part of the series deals with Hereo's life on Mars. Finally finished. I like this one! It runs very smoothly.

Stefy has done another beautiful picture of Relena holding a shirtless Heero to her chest.  Sooooooo pretty!!!!  Click HERE.

Winggirl

Destiny of the Heart

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5
Part 6
Part 7
Part 8
Part 9
Part 10
Part 11
Epilogue

Gotta love this take on Relena and Heero in a dire situation. Their plane crashes and they end up being each other's only chance for survival. Read it! I'm certainly enjoying it immensely. Finished!

Stefy has struck again!  Really beautiful portrait of our favorite couple on the snow and Relena trying to check him for injuries.  Click HERE.

Winggirl

Pain, Sorrow and Happiness

Prologue
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5
Epilogue 1
 
Epilogue 2
 
Epilogue 3

Sequel to "Destiny of the Heart", but not exactly the happy ending we were all hoping for. Heart wrenching to say the least, but definitely a what looks to be a great story. There are some really original twists and turns that keep the reader on their toes.

Winggirl

Shattered Dreams

Prologue
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Epilogue

Author's description: Heero and Relena are celebrating their first anniversary only to have everything fall apart.

Genre: Angst. Romance. Drama.

Winggirl

To Protect Until the End

Prologue
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Epilogue

Author's description: Heero has been Relena's bodyguard and friend for over three years now. He has finally admitted to himself that he loves her, but she is seriously involved with another man.

Genre: Romance. Drama. Angst.

Yin

Dark Blue

This song is SO perfect in describing what Relena feels towards Heero! It's an interesting take on their reunion. Some Duo and Hilde too.

Zapenstap

Heart of the Sword

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12

Author's description: Convinced Heero feels nothing for her, Relena looks to a visiting prince named Damion for romance. Heero goes slightly mad with sudden passion, to the point of wanting to kill Relena's new interest.  But Damion knows he doesn't deserve Heero's fury, and nobody is backing down or giving up.

Genre: Romance. Action/Adventure.

Zelanie Tskuiki

To the Moon and Back

This is a songfic based on the Savage Garden song. I was happy to find this because I always think of Heero and Relena when I hear this song.

Zoe

Wind's Cries

Another one of mine. Relena feels desperate and guess who she turns to. My short lived attempt at being poetic...

Zoe

For Now

Heero reliving his training